watched attack on titan, very odd feeling because it was my first anime ever but i lost interest after like the 3rd season and never finished it. well now i did. i would write a review but ehhh idk how i feel about it or how to rate it, basically what makes it fall short in the end is mikasa and eren. which is kind of a big deal since the plot completely revolves around them (eren at least, mikasa is a pointless animal). so i will just leave it at that. heres the tierlist i made with my friends
idk open it in a new tab or something.

i like buying postcards at thrift stores. also depicted myself as a pikmin. in case you were wondering what that would look like.

got some new stuff... absurdly rusty kettle but thats why it was dirt cheap lol + i like that style. if i had a gambeson and some pants i could probably actually put together a kit. but idk im too broke to actually make it as historically accurate as i would want it to be and im too autistic about this shit to half ass it. so i might just leave it at a state where its so innacurate that it doesnt look like im trying to be at all to save me the embaressment. but with the pieces i have i could go for a late 14th century infantry look. the gauntlets just bother me cause theyre so gothic and big hmm... but hey at least my mail is actually riveted and not that disgusting larp stuff

love this song..been getting into more 70s music and movies lately

why is october going by so quickly yer freaking me out. anyways i cleaned out the front compartment of my backpack that i just throw anything in and yeah... so much random bullshit in there

eventho i said i wouldnt do it ig i did end up re-doing every page after all. well, the major ones that is, or at least editing everything down a lot if not outright replacing things. idk i know it kinda sucks for ppl who like my old stuff but i just no longer see myslef in it, as i have explained over and over again. of course im mostly overthinking but i just want my website to be something i dont have to be embaressed about. which i think i mostly achived by now. so it was really between this and sooner or later abandoning it all together. but i still love webdesign and its still a fun side project for me so yk ill def keep working on it. and its cool so many ppl found it inspriring ig. i think it turned 3 years old recently, which is weird cause it sort of feels older than that to me but also not at the same time. those were def the most eventful years of my life since i moved out so thats probably it. big transitional period of life, so much has changed, but 90% for the better

also Ludgar and salatsussy before defeating Radahn. still have very mixed feelings regarding elden ring but it mustve been pretty scary to be in an arena with two legends

huzzah they changed the html editor back. here are some books i recently got. the anatomy of torture is about the use of torture during the spanish inquisition, applied to modern cases as well. the other one is a comic from the 70s and a book about anatomical wax figures

an interesting excerpt:

Wax Flesh, Vicious Circles
Georges Didi-Huberman
Wax is the material of all resemblances. Its figurative virtues are so remarkable that it was often considered a prodigious, magical material, almost alive - and disquieting for that very reason. Even if we leave aside Pharaonic Egypt and its spellbinding texts, Pliny the Elder's Natural Hist ory already catalogues, in the Roman period, the entire technical-mythical repertory of the medical, cosmetic, industrial, and religious properties of wax. Closer to our time, a Sicilian wax-worker, a modest supplier of exvotos and crèche figurines, expressed some fifteen years ago his wonder at the strange powers of this material, nonetheless so familiar to him: "It is marvelous. You can do anything with it .]. It moves." (R. Cedrini, 1991).
Yes, wax "moves." To say that it is a plastic material is above all to say that it gives way almost without resistance before every technique, before every formative process that one would impose on it. It goes exactly where you ask: it can be cut like butter with the sculptor's chisel, or warmed up and easily modeled with the fingers; it flows effortlessly into molds whose volume and texture it adopts with astounding preci-sion. Wax also "moves" in the sense that it permits the inscription, the duplication, the temporal as well as spatial displacement of the forms which impress themselves into it, transforming, effacing, and reforming themselves infinitely. Which is why, from Aristotle to Freud, this material has provided the privileged metaphor of the work of memory, and even of sensorial operations in general.
But still more, wax "moves" in the sense that it "upsets." The unstable material par excellence - if stability is understood as the fixed character of qualities - wax presents a disconcerting multiplicity of phys ical properties. It seems to be a substance unconcerned by the contradiction of material qualities: it is solid, but easily liquefied; impermeable, yet readily soluble in water; it can be opaque or transparent, matte or polished, slippery or sticky, brittle or malleable; its consistency can be endlessly modified through the addition of a wide range of resins. It is a fragile and temporary material, but is most often used for objects destined to endure. It is untouched by the traditional distinction and hierarchy of the plastic arts, for it can be sculpted, modeled, and molded.

neocities seems to have had an update that changed the color themes and now the one i was using for years is gone.... it was in joker colors and named chaos.... why would you do this to me.... (now i use a different one but its kind of an eye sore)

im actually just writing this cause im avoiding going to the grocery store

got a domain today, wasnt too difficult thankfully lol. idk i was just sick of the neocities part of the url, i feel like the site is more independant without. started this blog thing cause the old one kinda sucked (if you can even consider that a blog) and ive been meaning to do more text posts. and this time im putting a strict no self loathing rule onto it!
also i know i knowww the new frame i added a couple of months ago is way too dark and you can barely see it on most screens. in my defense it looked fine on mine! lol. i made it a bit brighter now.